I have to be completely honest with myself. I'm just not prepared to run MCM. I want to do it well for my brothers and for myself, but given the timing of this whole year, I feel like it would've been cheating if I ran it not being fully prepared.
I know I'm always full of excuses, but given the mental and physical exhaustion of moving and having everything thrown this way non-stop, I feel like not running is just the best. Besides having to acclimate to this new environment, I've been full steam ahead with this month-long business venture with 6 other artists and the amount of preparation is just tiring.
I emailed Grace, my marathon partner to see what she thinks. She has been extremely busy as well, and the last time I spoke with her, the job situation wasn't looking too well.
Maybe this just wasn't in the cards this time out. Good thing is that we have until the end of the month to decide whether or not to postpone. If she's been training and wants me to be there for her support I'd definitely go and cheer her on.
Sometimes deciding not to run a race is a lot harder than deciding to run one.